It has been more than 4 months during my last post. There was a phase in which i used to voraciously blog and spent a sizeable portion of my time lost in the delights of blogger-bliss. Suddenly a new phase arose in which i used to think every alternate day.... i really should blog 2day.its been long.... However strong the spirit might be the flesh resisted and i lost myself in a thousand other things.
Here i am now , halfway thru my summer internship, doing some supposedly very important work, when suddenly i have this irresistible urge to open www.blogger.com. I am completely clueless about the rationality of doing this in my office where i am not supposed to open non official sites. ( if anybody from my office is reading.... then this is not me, but my identical twin .)
Anyways, chuck it.... what i wanted to say was friends did any of you ever have this strange inexplicable need to get away from a thing,habbit, activity or person which or whom you are closely attached to . Honestly, it happens with me all the time. Dating back to my childhood days when i used to hide my blue teddy under the bed after intervals of around 5 months of inseperability. I remember not even looking at it for days and then again going back... a picture of contrite repentance.
The teddy was very understanding though and didnt snap or bite me.... However in adult life i have to deal with bruised feelings and wounded egos quite often. It usually goes on till the time people either accept me for the person i am or unable to cope up with my periodic dissapearing act they do a permanent one of their own. So many times have i tried to straighten this random zig-zag behaviour but Claustrophobia with a capital C chases me away. This need for asserting my independence after i realize the rainbow theads of affection binding me pushes me and i retreat into " i am the female equivalent of the famous rubber band theory" kind of phase.
However as i was saying did it ever happen with any of you. After all my " i am unique, independent and dont follow the beaten track " declarations are over. Its nice to know that there is somebody in a similar looking boat.
Everyone goes through this phase..once in a while. After all, this is the right answer to repetition and boredom. What say?
ReplyDeletei really like wat u hav ritten...its sth i hav often faced but sadly wasnt able to express it as beautifully as yu have done above!!! keep up ur good work!
ReplyDeleteA nice post...rather a good revelation. But this is not a phase that one goes through only once in his/her life...many a time in your life you'll fell to get detach from something/somebody...I know someone who felt an "inexplicable need to get away from" someone in recent past!!...and another one who tried to explain the act, but....as you said - it is "inexplicable".
ReplyDeleteThis piece of writing seems to me like reading a story which takes me down the memory lane.the way you penned down the happenings of your different phase of life is really very awesome.
ReplyDeleteGood to see you back... forget the rationality at work... everyone is doing it :P
ReplyDeletehave a nice evening... take care... cheers..
well i don't hav the patience to read all thee.......... but its nice.............[:]
ReplyDeletewell, you didnt say one thing reagrding all this clautrophobic feeling of self denial... sometimes people when going through such a phase get so tired of someone sticking to them and accepting them, that they go to levels to get rid of that person.
ReplyDeletewell, everyone goes through such phases (although not very frequently)... so be it. do you really care? i dont.